I have experienced developmental trauma throughout my childhood. During my mid twenties, life came crashing down on me and directed me towards a healing path. I have learned several types of healing modalities including yoga, meditation, life coaching, EFT, Psych K, music, dance, art, and more. I have also had to practice setting healthy boundaries with others and I am still on a path towards this as well as teaching myself the practice of self love and self compassion.
My mother has borderline personality disorder. My stepfather was inappropriate. I lived with them for seven years from ages 10-17, which were the most difficult years of my life. A lot of emotional abuse, neglect, psychological abuse, and I had no one to trust while I was growing up. My other family members have also taken advantage of me and did not treat me well, and it was to the point that I needed to remove them from my life in order to live a healthy and balanced life. I have gone through trying to help them and also trying to do anything to connect with them. I realized that I needed to start caring for myself in a way that my family could not care for me. I needed to learn how to set boundaries, and to discern who and who not to allow into my life. I have become my own best friend. I realized that I am the person I have been waiting for to save me. I am the person who determines my direction, my path, and what kind of life I want to have. It is never too late to make changes, no matter how drastic these life changes need to be. This journey continues, and I am glad to help anyone who is also on this path.
I have also struggled immensely with body image issues and had various eating disorders growing up. My mother was verbally abusive and made comments about my body being either too fat, too thin, or just an overall sense of disapproval of me and my appearance. I have a much better (but not perfect) body image of myself now. I have been able to reshape my views on physical appearances. I am seeing more and more that we are all beautiful and our bodies should be treated with respect and dignity. There is never anything to be ashamed of. I am working on seeing the beauty in myself daily. The more beauty that I see in myself, the more I can see in others, and it would be a pleasure to work with anyone who is interested in learning to see themselves in a more loving and compassionate way.